Worst behavior.

Good day!
This post will be a little mushy/annoying all at the same time.

I don't know how to begin or where do I begin, but I need to vent it out. I might get crazy over thinking if I didn't do so.

Let's begin...

I was a new boy in our school so basically I didn't know everyone, so I sit quietly in the corner of our room waiting for our professor to arrive.
Time passed, my classmates entered the room and the professor finally came.

There's this one girl who caught my attention the time she enters the room. She's adorable of course, and to top that she's smart. Every single day i'm looking forward on going to school because I know that I will meet her. I can't stop staring at her and I didn't even understand what the girl in front is talking about or what's happening around me.
That moment, I knew I need to talk to her. But because of my shy self (which is the annoying part of me) I wasn't able to talk to her. Months passed, still nothing, nothing special happened and I can't even join their group because I thought that was the first step on knowing her.
So we were nearing the end of our semester and when that time comes I don't know why but that is the time where I get close or get to talk at least with my classmates. (I was like that back when I was in high school) I got her number and I thought this might be it but boy I was wrong.
I get to talk with this girl, had small talks, get to know her a little better.
I really just wanna grab her in the corner and confess what I feel for her, what's blocking my way is I know she has a boyfriend and my shyness, and I'm really poor at that sh*t. (I know it sucks).
I treasure every time we had talks, and the last time she bid goodbye she waved her hand and I almost melted. (Pathetic? Yes!)
Until now, no development whatsoever.....


Another girl. Same story. (FML)

We were classmates once a week, every Thursday to be exact. Nothing was special on the first weeks of class, I guess up to this point. (I don't know)
But I think there's something, because every time we see each other, she always greet me. As in like, every time.(I'm just assuming probably) I start to like her plus she's cool. Actually I don't know how to explain this, at least I write it down and see how little the moments I had with her. (maybe i'm just expecting too much)
And same story from above, wanna confess but don't want to get rejected. Didn't know if she has a boyfriend though.

"Love is a drug, like the strongest stuff ever. But f*ck it, i'm on one." - J.Cole (Power Trip)